What a lie.  Losing your child never gets easy,  you just get better at dealing with it.  It not like loosing a football game or loosing your wallet.  Those things can be replaced.  It’s loosing something that cannot be replaced, nor forgotten.  It is not something you can just smooth over.  And that is ok.  I don’t want the feeling to go away,  it is a reminder for me of Andrew.  It is a painful reminder,  but a reminder that helps me.  Every time I miss Andrew or see something that reminds me of him my first response is always a sigh or a cry,  but then I remember where he is.  He is in the presence of my Lord.  He is not hurting anymore.  He is using two legs to walk or run.  He is not in heaven grieving for me.  He is in heaven with a joyful and thankful heart.  What I feel is the pain of separation.  The joy I have is that this separation is just temporary.  Many people ask how you get over it.  My answer is simple you don’t,  but you can get through it.  I like what our Lord told Paul,  ”My grace is sufficient.”  The hurt that I feel is not strong than the grace the Lord has provided.  Some day’s the day seems Long,  the trials seem hard to bare.  I am tempted to complain, to murmur and despair.  I need to remember that Christ will soon appear to take the redeemed away.  Our enemy(death) will be banished and we will lay our burdens down.  When we see Christ.  Thanks be to God, which giveth us the victory through our Lord Jesus Christ.  The pain does not get easier,  but one day,  It will be gone.

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